I’m trying
But still I close my eyes
The dreaming
Bringing his face to mine
Lock the door



The constant buzzing

All through the night

The fighting

Rips me all up inside



On the floor



I pace, I run my mouth

I pray and wait

I cross out his name on the page



(How long ’til) this washes away?

(How long ’til) my body is safe?

(How long ’til) I walk in the light?

(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?



The rise and fall

Of his chest on me

I’m trying

But still it’s all I see



The violent

Current of energy

I hide it

Away and underneath



Lock the door



I shake, I promise everyday

To change

I cross out his name on the page



(How long ’til) this washes away?

(How long ’til) my body is safe?

(How long ’til) I walk in the light?

(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?



Take this wildness away



I’m trying

But still I close my eyes

The dreaming

Bringing his face to mine



Out the door



I pace, I run my mouth

I pray to change

I cross out his name on the page



(How long ’til) this washes away?

(How long ’til) my body is safe?

(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?



I just want him in my arms

I just want him in my arms