And I try to believe when he says that it will pass
But it's too cliché for me
December has passed and now comes the worst month
Of my life, because everything starts again in January
There is a form of memories in storm
And the nights are too disturbing
I'm so alone
And nobody likes that
So I can not sleep
I have to laugh at myself to get live
I can not go around as before
And so it is the worst month of my life
I wish I could forget everything
And take me with some coolest thing
But comes the sun so warm and bright
And I have no strength
I'm losing my mind
I can not control this mess
It's all so dark and yet so clear
I can hardly breathe
I'm still trying to calm me now
But the memories
are like a storm in my head
I try to give back and improve
But I'm tired and powerless
I'm so alone
And nobody likes that
So I can not sleep
I have to laugh at myself to get live
I can not go around as before
And so it is the worst month of my life
I'm just needing to feel safe
But in this immense confusion I only have insecurity
And I have to escape this nightmare
So when I wake up
Please tell me what has passed in January also