[Verse 1]
I don't know what I was thinking leaving my child behind
Now I suffer the curse, and now I am blind
With all this anger, guilt and sadness coming to haunt me forever
I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river
Is this revenge I am seeking, or seeking someone to avenge me?
Stuck in my own paradox, I wanna set myself free
Maybe I should chase and find, before they try to stop it
It won't be long before I become a puppet
[Chorus]
It's been so long since I last have seen my son
Lost to this monster, to the man behind the slaughter
Since you've been gone, I've been singin' this stupid song
So I can ponder the sanity of your mother
[Instrumental Drop]
[Verse 2]
I wish I lived in the present, with the gift of my past mistakes
But the future keeps lurking in like a pack of snakes
Your sweet little eyes, your little smile's all I remember
Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper
Justification is killing me, but killin' isn't justified
What happened to my son? I'm terrified
It lingers in my mind, and the thought keeps on getting bigger
I'm sorry, my sweet baby, I wish I'd been there
[Chorus]
It's been so long since I last have seen my son
Lost to this monster, to the man behind the slaughter
Since you've been gone, I've been singin' this stupid song
So I can ponder the sanity of your mother
[Instrumental Outro]