These are the days
These are the only days
This is the only only
But these are the days
That feel like those other days

Each moment is open. Open



These are the days

That I used to see in dreams

These are the days I told me



I would receive

These are the days I used to believe

I was trying to show me



I could have used

These days when the days were those days

When the days used to pass so slowly



And when they have gone

I will remember

These days as the days when I had a focus



That I do not feel in the moment

Only the moment, I know

Only the moment



The whole sky is broken, it opens upon me

These are the days

These are the only days



So why can't I feel them hold me?

Why must I sit in the wake of the days

Watching them pass



Like they are not golden?

These are the golden moments

But these are the days



That I turned my back on

These are the days I let go of

Looking for days



That used to be days

Or days still to come

Nothing was broken



But I made it break

Coz I couldn't wait

For the days to be filled with emotion



I couldn't rest

I wanted obsession, adrenaline, mess

I wanted devotion



But I didn't know

Why I was so pressed by distraction

Why I was so desperate to let it all go



Let it all grow

From the moment

Take it apart. Just to know it can never be broken



Make it an art

Walking away from the good ones

When I should have listened



But what's hidden

Is only revealed when you're looking for patterns

These are the days when I regain my balance



For now, I am sat without love or compassion

Defeating myself because I made it happen

But no more comparisons



No shade

No shame

No vanishing flames at the edge of the frame



No practicing

Only the main

It's all spilling out of my veins



All these mannequins

Turned when I came, looked away

How embarrassing



Stop shouting your name in my ears

I'm not panicking

I am right here



I am right here, I am managing

These are the days

That the other days spanned



Don't bother me

Don't understand

Don't follow me into the sand



Don't wallow in bed until air becomes solid

You were all presence

And I was all plans



These are the days

When I felt the days

Rise in my body and I took them in hand



These are the days

When I feel the days

Rise in my body and I take them in hand