I keep on having this dream where I'm seventeen
Slipping through the cafeteria trying not to be seen
I see my brother, he's sitting there with some kids
He smiles at me and waves, I fake a smile and sit
Down at the table, but something's off and I know it
'Cause when I try and say something nobody seems to take notice

I kinda like it, but then I start to feel strange

Like the time I went on Amazon to buy myself a date



When did things get pixelated?

I can't keep my concentration

I've lost my imagination

To such great expectations



All the things that I never said

They keep crawling back to me

All the things that I never did

They still haunt me in my dreams

All the years I've spent

All the lives I've faked

Just to keep myself protected

From all the things that I never said



I keep a Rolodex inside of my head of all the times I had a chance to just be honest, instead

I made a joke to changed the subject because my confidence said:

"Hey, listen, if you mess this up, they're gonna judge you, my friend!"

I'm living in a state of pure paralysis, see

I like to think, think, think, but my action is weak

My interaction is bleak, if life's a herd, I'm a sheep

Guess I'm not really that much different than at age seventeen



When did things get pixelated?

I can't keep my concentration

I've lost my imagination

To such great expectations



All the things that I never said

They keep crawling back to me

All the things that I never did

They still haunt me in my dreams

All the years I've spent

All the lives I've faked

Just to keep myself protected

From all the things that I never said



All of the things we wish we said

They drag me down until I'm dead

You say the best is yet to come

Can anyone figure out what's wrong with us?



All the things that I never said

They keep crawling back to me

All the things that I never did

They still haunt me in my dreams

All the years I've spent

All the lives I've faked

Just to keep myself protected

From all the things that I never said