Just one more dance, embrace the last chance
Forty days till the doc delivers the stern glance
Not in my hands, not like I planned
20 cc's unleashed on this man
The colors of the reverse,
reversed for old time's sake
A prism or a prison; a decision left to make
It's the gift and it's the curse
Fear the worst when the vessels burst
In a limo or in a hearse, down by the church
Six months left became six months later
A tattered passerby praying for a favor
Choking on the smoke, the second hand is ticking
Got a head full of coke and
there's a small child kicking
It's not enough to be humble in a
world full of fingers
The sound still lingers,
sleeping with a dead ringer
Least she's still by my side; the knot stayed tied
Didn't wanna make you cry, but inside….
I'm so lonely
I'm sick so won't you hold me
The teachers always told me
Be careful what you don't see
Don't wanna bring you down
It's easier to drown
But wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you
The last time the past crossed my mind
I was passing thru a crowded room
that turned into a cemetery
Stone faces planted in my head
I hate the words that were said
I'm gonna fake it for the last time
I'm replaced by this body in my bed
Fade to red, they left me for dead
Take a guess; forget the rest in the shed
Books I read said dread a suicide with lead
Here's an once of freedom, take it
down, it's all the same
Remain bold and shameless, signal, change lanes
Back to the church, father please forgive my sins
It's not my fault, release your talons
Six gallons to the brim
And stop your screaming, it's not over yet
The best part's still coming,
running circles round the room
The nurses, curses, going black,
pulse pumping, chest thumping
I'm running, I'm running, I'm running, I'm running
I'm so lonely
I'm sick so won't you hold me
The teachers always told me
Be careful what you don't see
Don't wanna bring you down
It's easier to drown
But wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you
It grows slowly
The sickness is unfolding
Now everyone is scolding
These hands are not for holding
I wanna leave this town
I wouldn't make a sound
But wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you
The third time's the charm
Guess it couldn't harm
I've had enough of this charade
It's pitiful the way my mind replays
What could've, should've, would've been
But I can't change a thing
Would I really even want to
It all worked out so perfectly
Hit 11, took a trip and went to heaven
Brought back the key like Emery
Then gradually I faded from your memory
Like a Gemini who touched the sky
I'm a bird; I'm an eagle on his perch
One last trip to the church
Oh look, it's an open casket
There's a smile on my face
Some flowers, some white lace,
a vase, a black dress
Wait a second, that's you, you're a mess
It wasn't supposed to be like this
The pistol's on the chest
I could've been the best
But when you're dead, there's nothing more
And there's nothing less
I'm so lonely
I'm sick so won't you hold me
The teachers always told me
Be careful what you don't see
Don't wanna bring you down
It's easier to drown
But wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you
It grows slowly
The sickness is unfolding
Now everyone is scolding
These hands are not for holding
I wanna leave this town
I wouldn't make a sound
But wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you