Theres a black cloud, hanging over my head
strip me back and theres not much left
Whats the point of going outside?
The world wont change if I live or die
I used to take all the strain
I used to hate on the world
I used to sink to the depths just to reach new lows
But now Im finding my feet
And now I'm free to let go
I had to give up pain, to take control
Ive spent my life not diving in, just feeling low
Ive spent my life not going in, but here we go
Im doing fine, getting by on my own
Wonder why when Im high, I feel so alone
I hate my self-deprecating
I hate my self-medicating
There's a black flag hanging over my bed
There's no point in losing sleep over all the words I left unsaid
Its bad luck, it's bad luck
It's just life, just calling my bluff
Can't keep putting life off forever
Ive spent my life not diving in, just feeling low
Ive spent my life not going in, but here we go
Im doing fine, getting by on my own
Wonder why when Im high, I feel so alone
I hate my self-deprecating
I hate my self-medicating
I hate my self-loathing I'm over it
Self-loathing I'm over it